After that bag of popcorn, my defense was down, so I ate the pineapple... Gah. I'm a little mad now.
However, I do want to be able to eat chocolate again, hopefully soon, once my resistance is reinstated. I don't really understand why... I thought I was in control, but I suppose something got the better of me - guilt. So, how do I prevent this from ever happening again? Hmm... That's led me to some thinking...
From now onwards, I will avoid giving into impulse-decisions, if not in a social setting. I will stick to what I have scheduled for myself, until I am 100% sure I can trust myself. Hopefully, this works, because I would really hate to go back to the vicious cycle I was once in...
I understand that I have made a mistake and I take responsibility for it. Tomorrow, I shall work it off.
Sigh. I really hope that this habit of mine gets better... I really do want to break it. Maybe I should pray when overcome with an impulse decision, so that I won't give in to it. Also, let this serve as a reminder to why I have that 5pm curfew for eating.
I hope that a year from now I'll be able to look back and see this as a turning point, having broken the cycle.
Cheers and all the best.
Love,
E